passion

I read my dear friend blog just now. Who is that friend of mine? Oh it is turkey leg. He said he want to be perhaps an electrical engineer or an aerospace engineer. However when he think again, he feel guilty because he is steering away from his original path of becoming an artist who is capable of visualizing human anatomy, which i believe he is trying to say he can x-ray a woman off her clothes, or a man's. haha.

Ok, here we are talking about passion. I believe my generation and of course the generation before us are always controlled. We do not want to be a doctor simply because a doctor is that evil twin who give us medicine, bitter medicine, so be a doctor is going against ourselves. The other evil twins is perhaps, our parents who forced us to study or work in a course or profession what we do not like, like, medicine.

But what can we do but to follow our parents idea in the end? Therefore alot of us go and be in some profession like doctors, lawyers, engineers, etc. But hey, when we become those, we actually like it, because as we are in great demand, our payroll rises also!

So we toil and sweat for half a century until our initial passion creep onto us. But by now, we couldn't even fulfilled our passions.

What is the thing that separate us from our passion? Is it because that our parents told us not to follow it? Or is it cash hypnotised us until we couldn't follow that original path? Or because we ourselves afraid of losing, afraid of uncertainties, in one word, afraid is the word that forbade us from pursuing our passion?

I believe with much regret, it is the last option. We are afraid of losing that 100k paycheck, the kind of respect, the kind of level and perhaps, the kind of society which we are associate with. True you will say those unsought after profession like artist have a certain degree of respect associate with them, but don't you realise those respect come posthumusly?

To me i am at the crossroad also together with my buddy. What is passion to us except a very distant word?